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Dec. 15th, 2020 11:09 amI've been quieter lately because
a) I started playing piano again and it rebalanced my neurotransmitters
b) I wrote 34 pages of final papers over 32 hours last week (divided into two marathon sessions) on top of my normal work week so I wasn't up to writing anything else
c) it's winter and I'm sleeeeeepy
d) a bunch of my friends reached out to me so I'm not as lonely and needing to talk as usual
But anyway, just to prove things aren't always dramatic in mirandaland, a quick update:
I have completed semester 7 of 8 and registered for my final classes of seminary.
I'm considering pushing back MFC date because the pandemic has really truncated my resources and I don't feel like I've been preparing as I should. Some of my colleagues had their interview two weeks ago and their experiences are not making me more confident.
Spouse and I quarantined so we could go to their parents' house for Hanukkah. Then we went food shopping, and now we are quarantining again so we can visit my parents in Asheville for Christmas.
I begged off two full days without Job at the beginning of the month because I desperately needed some mental space to process some grief and trauma. It was effective! I got to a really interesting serene place and ended up sending letters of apology for old things that I had screwed up with a few of my loved ones. I have a few more to do, but this is enough for now. This is also partly a belated follow-up to a conversation I had in a support group about making amends, where I realized I was so hung up on resenting the people who I feel me an apology but won't offer one, that I have forgotten to appreciate what a gift it has been from those who have shown me they care in such a way.
Then a bunch of mundane stuff! Finances are stressful. Our basement floods when it rains but that's pretty easy to mitigate. I'm hitting something like a daily/weekly routine which balances work, rest, housework, hygiene, and meals (but not recreation, sadly).
Lastly, an entertaining story: on Saturday, I was struggling to function around my exhaustion and I pulled a tarot card about it. Star reversed, which is essentially "you are totally actually drained of energy, rest." So i was like "yes, thanks, any tips on how to rest?"
But my deck kept giving me the title card after that, so I texted my Tarot friend and told them about it. Friend pulled a card asking "how can Ro get some rest?"
And pulled the card "DEATH"
a) I started playing piano again and it rebalanced my neurotransmitters
b) I wrote 34 pages of final papers over 32 hours last week (divided into two marathon sessions) on top of my normal work week so I wasn't up to writing anything else
c) it's winter and I'm sleeeeeepy
d) a bunch of my friends reached out to me so I'm not as lonely and needing to talk as usual
But anyway, just to prove things aren't always dramatic in mirandaland, a quick update:
I have completed semester 7 of 8 and registered for my final classes of seminary.
I'm considering pushing back MFC date because the pandemic has really truncated my resources and I don't feel like I've been preparing as I should. Some of my colleagues had their interview two weeks ago and their experiences are not making me more confident.
Spouse and I quarantined so we could go to their parents' house for Hanukkah. Then we went food shopping, and now we are quarantining again so we can visit my parents in Asheville for Christmas.
I begged off two full days without Job at the beginning of the month because I desperately needed some mental space to process some grief and trauma. It was effective! I got to a really interesting serene place and ended up sending letters of apology for old things that I had screwed up with a few of my loved ones. I have a few more to do, but this is enough for now. This is also partly a belated follow-up to a conversation I had in a support group about making amends, where I realized I was so hung up on resenting the people who I feel me an apology but won't offer one, that I have forgotten to appreciate what a gift it has been from those who have shown me they care in such a way.
Then a bunch of mundane stuff! Finances are stressful. Our basement floods when it rains but that's pretty easy to mitigate. I'm hitting something like a daily/weekly routine which balances work, rest, housework, hygiene, and meals (but not recreation, sadly).
Lastly, an entertaining story: on Saturday, I was struggling to function around my exhaustion and I pulled a tarot card about it. Star reversed, which is essentially "you are totally actually drained of energy, rest." So i was like "yes, thanks, any tips on how to rest?"
But my deck kept giving me the title card after that, so I texted my Tarot friend and told them about it. Friend pulled a card asking "how can Ro get some rest?"
And pulled the card "DEATH"
